Used

Looking back at myself
How could I be so used
Listening to all those lies
Made me so confused

Mistaken for a friend
You tore the flesh clean through
Relentlessly slashing at my soul
Nothing is all I can do

Ghost in the shadows
Taking the wrong advice
Taking the easy way out
Taking the easy life

You betrayed all foundations
Shaking the meaning of truth
How can you sit there and tell me
Its eye for an eye tooth for tooth

Gabcast! Poetry #1

Colorblind

I'm unfolding right before your eyes.
Your only demon in disguise.
Parallel to a monster you'd never want to meet,
hiding under this brand new skin.
You can't see right through me
even though its paper thin;
a cellophane wall of distrust.
Even if you don't, I must.
Through my blackened eyes
I see a world of white
swirled by ladles of color.
Brightening this haze of life.
How can you say I'm at my lowest low
when I've risen to my highest peak?
This feeling will not fade away.
You cannot melt this smile off my face
until you've felt what I am feeling.
You don't know you're alive or that you're even breathing.
Step outside your box and come take a walk with me.
I'm sure then, you'll see what I see.
I'm chaining this demon, keeping it locked inside my head
and laying him to sleep alone in bed.
So that when I wake I'll be alright
and through my midnight eyes;
I'll see black and white.

Mirrors

You’re sitting alone
Looking into the mirror
Feeling so drowned
And wishing to disappear

You finally find the strength to stand
You lean against the sink
Staring down at your hands

You look back up
And see your own face
That once happy look
Is twisted and misplaced

The anger grows
As the fist is thrown
You hear the mirror break
And as you see the blood
You slowly start to shake

Then on the inside
You start to scream
Why did this happen to me
This cant be real
Wake me up from this dream

Because when you’re sitting alone
Looking into the mirror
You just wish
That you could disappear

Proof

Never Coming Back

How you took me down,
flung my heart all around
and you dangled me like a doll.

Until there was nothing left at all,
making me love you,
making me hate.

I hope you have it all;
what makes you so great?

I'll miss you laugh,
but most of all your smile.

When you looked at me
life was worthwhile;
you took this dream
turned it into a nightmare.

I wanted you to protect me
but when I looked, you weren't there.

So I hope you enjoy where you are now
'cause you're never coming back, no way, no how

Lost in this maze,
dying in this haze,
tired of all the shit
and the games you play.

But I say that I hate you
we both know I never will

If there was a slice of your heart
I hope it'd be my place to fill.

So I'm drowning out my thoughts of you
so I may breathe clear under this hue
and let the waves crash over me.

With this final note, I'm through
heading back to the sand to write your name one last time.

I'll never forget our memories,
your heart and mine
and for what may seem like a childish game.

I hope you know that I'll always write your name
through this threshold of emotions
crashing together.

I hope someday you'll read this
as it's my final letter.

In order to cage my heart and make it all better
I reach out to you one last time
to put it back together.

I never wanted to leave
and as tears caress my words.

I hope this gets to you
and as it gets colder
and frost fills the air.

I hope you return to me.
I can feel you already there
warming this spot in my heart
and retake your space.

I'll keep this safe for you
and never fill its place.

The Heart

This heart,

My heart.

It use to belong to you,

But you’re gone.

You left,

And now my chest is empty.

You left me with a life,

So dull,

So empty.

The absence of one human,

Was never thought to hurt this much.

Oh, but it does.

A pain,

So hard to even being to describe.

I’m grasping for air,

Clutching my chest.

Crying out to you,

With, yet again, no reply.

I think myself insane,

Loving someone who’s not there.

Was it even real?

Did this really happen?

Why me, and why now?

Only your answers are satisfactory.

Your warm and gentle kiss,

Could bring me to my knees.

You could put me in a coma,

With just one stare.

It all means nothing, now,

Without you here.

I miss you,

And I need you.

I care,

And I ache.

You’re gone,

And I’m following shortly behind.